Monthly Archives: April 2013

My Struggle

The past month has been not to great in the health category of my life. Workouts have been missed, unhealthy food has been consumed and jeans have gotten tight!

With the exception of yesterday (didn’t workout because my legs were sore, didn’t eat great) things are starting to slowly turn around, but I need to stick to it. Today I am airing my dirty laundry in a way, really being transparent with my struggle.

My favourite race picture of myself is this one….


This picture was taken on December 1st at the Santa Shuffle, which is also my current 5K PR of 30:15! I think I just looked healthy and happy. I was by no means skinny but I looked healthier. This isn’t my lowest weight I have been but I was able to maintain a certain weight while home on placement last year and I was proud. I want to get back to this weight! And then surpass it!

This is an image I made of race pictures. (Click on it to make it bigger so you can get the full effect haha)

PicMonkey Collage

The first was April 2012 at the forest City 5K. Although I’m wearing a sweater, and you can’t really see it, I felt pretty good about my weight. Throughout the summer I gained a bunch of pounds and then lost a bunch in the fall again, a pattern I followed every year. By December 1st at the Santa Shuffle (middle pic) I looked and felt pretty good. I was maintaining my new weight, and keeping consistent with my workouts! Life was good!! Then when I went back to school in January I completely fell off the wagon. I gained a few pounds, which only got worst once I got home from school, where I gained more pounds. By April 2013, or Sunday when the picture was taken, I have gained too much weight. Looking at the pictures from Sunday makes me cringe, how did I let this happen. Its disgusting really, shameful and embaressing.

I can’t let myself get down about it though or there will be no changes. I have to accept what I have done, change it and drive forward! Workouts are back into my life and the word NO to food is too! Would you like some chips? NO! French Fries? NO! Chocolate? No, well maybe just a little!

Since April 1st I have lost a few pounds, big woop. I weigh myself almost daily, and record the # to try and see how things are going. In a month I should have lost no less than 8 lbs, but its not happening.

I believe that everyone has struggles in their life, well mine is my weight – mainly keeping straight and narrow on the healthy eating track. I want to be done with this weight loss thing, and just maintain already. I’m tired of gaining and loosing and gaining again!

I used to tell myself “you have to loose weight to be skinny” but now I am looking it as a health concern. Now I remind myself that eating 3 cookies is not a healthy choice and I am trying to get healthy! That being overweight isn’t a healthy thing so cutting some weight is simply living a healthy life. For me, this is such a better mindset, then trying to get skinny. Because I will never be skinny 😉 Diabetes runs in my family, and I love sugar way too much. So reminding myself that I need to take care of my body now in order to be healthy 20 years from now is important, I do NOT want to give myself diabetes in the future!

This post is quite lengthy now, but I just thought I would share my struggle. We all have different things going on in our lives, and I just think that mine is more visual. Someone else might have a problem with alcohol or depression which isn’t as visible but we need to remember that everyone struggles with  something and that we all need to be supportive and understanding of them!

Time to loose forever!!



Forest City Road Race 10K Recap

Yesterday I ran the Forest City Road Race 10KM race. First I want to say the race was awesome! Well organized, on time, great volunteers, course was clearly marked A+++!!

Last year I ran the 5K and loved it, so this year I thought I would try to 10. Going into training I felt good, then I got injured and was on the side lines for a while. I haven’t mentioned it much here but my legs still bug me sometimes, which is a great deterrent from a lot of running.

Forest City 5k 032

Anyways. my training for the race was less than stellar. Last Sunday I did a 10K training run and felt pretty good about it.


I was nervous but didn’t feel too bad going into the run. I was a bit nervous, simply because of the distance alone and because I always get nervous before races, but felt alright. I knew going in that I was going to walk run it, but was hoping to beat my time from the previous weekend of 1:07:53.

Well, I crashed and burned hard! It was bad!


Chip time: 1:12:06
Garmin time: 1:12:12 (6.29 miles)
Average pace: 11:29 min/mile
Garmin splits: 9:19, 10:18, 11:41, 11:40, 12:41, 13:09, 3:21


Now lets start from the beginning. I woke up and ate my race morning breakfast, english muffin with peanut butter and coffee. I was getting some heart burn so I took some Tums. I have noticed that I get heart burn before races and I’m thinking maybe it is from nerves? We drove to the race and hung out for a bit.



Note from my Ma, she is the best! She couldn’t make it to the race because she had to work.


The race started on time and we were off. Standing at the start line I had a bad feeling. The heart burn was getting worse and very uncomfortable, my leg was really starting to hurt, and I was HOT!! I overdressed for this race, something I never do. I’m the queen for underdressing because I get so hot when I run. So things started off on the wrong foot.


Can you see me?! Haha There were quite a few people running the 10K. The race is growing, which is awesome!!


I ran for first mile way too fast!! 9:19 minute/mile. My plan was to run the first 2-3 miles and then walk/run the rest. Well that plan fell apart about 1.5 miles in. I was tired and started my walk breaks at that point. I was trying to keep my walk breaks to 1 minute but that plan also went out the window.


At about mile 2 I wanted to call for a ride to come pick me up. I took my phone with me just in case I got hurt (because of my legs and I have been known to trip and fall and hurt myself while running) and I wanted to use it. In hindsight I don’t know if taking my phone is such a good thing, but I’ll talk about that in another post.

Anyways, it was hard. The course had a few hills in it that I wasn’t ready for. The small town I live in is flat as a pancake and I didn’t even take hill training into consideration, live and learn. I was a hurtin’ unit out there. The race kicked my butt!!


At about the 8K mark the ‘slow’ pack was getting further and further away from me. I told myself ‘you better hurry up or your going to be last’ and lets just say there were only about 80 people behind me.

Other thoughts going though my head during the race included: I’m never running again, similarly to I’m never drinking again; Hurry the f**k up; I hate running; This is suppose to be FUN; There is nothing fun about this; I need a new hobby; STOP WALKING; WTF another hill; Start running when you get to X, ok get running!


As you can see it wasn’t very positive self talk, which is something else I need to work on. I know that I can run a 10K, I just need to train more. I am very disappointed in how things turned out yesterday, but in the end it is not the end of the world. There will be another race to try again, such as Mississauga on Saturday 😉

My cousins wife and I just after I crossed the finish line – lookin’ nasty!

– N

4 Recent Things

Hello my friends, long time no chat!

Life has been busssssy, but I am here to update you with happenings.

1. I ran the Run for Retina Research 5K Race on Sunday April 14th. The race location got changed due to flooding in the original location, and the course was on a paved path. This wasn’t ideal for me. There were quite a few walkers that started in front of a lot of the runners and it was hard to get around them. The first whole mile = frustration city. I didn’t think this race would be my sub-30 race that I want, but I was planning to push my hardest to try and get there.

Garmin Stats:
3.29 miles in 33:09
Avg. pace: 10:04
Splits: 10:38, 9:22, 9:41, 3:27

Race Stats:
Chip time: 32:48
Clock time:33:45

According to my Garmin the course was 3.29 miles. I took a walk break when I hit 3.1 miles – which I regret. I need to plug in my Garmin and find out my 5K time on it. Anyways I was not too happy with my time, but considering my training, or lack of, and my weight gain I’ll take it.

2. Tuesday was my very last day of teaching Kindergarten. I was sad to be done, I really liked being in there with those kids. But my time was up, on to bigger and better things.

Kinder 117 Kinder 135


3. On Sunday I ran 10K. It wasn’t pretty, there were walk breaks, I talked to myself outloud but its done. Took 1 hour 7 minutes and it felt good. 20130421-131947.jpg

I wore the new jacket I got from the Run for Retina and love it. Its a bit tiiight right now but otherwise I love it! I took my phone with me just in case, and because I was running on the highway, and it was great because the jacket had pockets with zippers. Love!

4. This Sunday I am running the Forest City 10K race. I’m nervous, but know I can do it. I am going to run the first 5K and then do run for .5 mile, walk for 1 minute for the rest. I’ll be sure to let you know how that goes.

Well, that all I have for now, I need to go for a run but just haven’t found the motivation yet today. Hope your having a great day!!


6.2 Done


Sunday Set Up

Sunday’s are my favourite, so relaxing!

Today was a good day, lots of not too much going on. Did some planning for Kindergarten, went to the gym (10 min bike, weights, 10 min elliptical – should have done more!) and Mad Men is on in 1.5 hours. I’ve never been so excited for a show!! Going to be good!!

Last week I was busy and getting to the gym just wasn’t #1 on my priority list – well this week it is!! Workouts this week are going to look like this:

Monday – Spin
Tuesday – 6×400 + Weights class
Wednesday – Spin
Thursday – 2.5 mile tempo + weights class
Friday – 60 min XT
Saturday – Spin or easy XT or Rest
Sunday – Run for Retina 5K + 2 easy miles

I need to really buckle down and get back into 6 workouts a week. I feel better when I get in good workouts!



Saturday morning I went for a run. I did 4 miles in 43:25. Not my fastest or best run. I ran 1.5 miles and then every .5 mile I took a 1 minute walk break. This worked really well for me, I tried to push knowing the walk break would be coming up and the faster I ran the faster I could walk.

Race season starts on Sunday with a 5K, then 2 weeks later I have a 10K and the weekend after I have that half-marathon. Depending on the 10K I might try the half. It was out of the question, but now I’m thinking I might try it. I don’t have to make my decision until the kit pick up date, so I am going to see how the first 10K goes and decide from there. I know I won’t be able to run the half – obviously – but I am so disappointed and sad that I wasn’t able to train that a big part of me wants to try. We will see.

Have a great week!


Easter 2013

Good Tuesday morning to you!!

I hope you had a great weekend!! Wow it was a long one for me, a full 4 days off from school – feels like forever ago that I was in the classroom. And this is another short week, I can’t say I’m not excited!

I had a pretty good weekend! I actually didn’t do all that much. I had/still have a touch of a cold so I just spent time relaxing. My family was also not doing much. My Ma was working, brother at his Dads, and my Dad wasn’t doing anything for Easter.

I got out for 2 runs, each 2 miles in length. I wanted to do more, but it just wasn’t in the books. This week I am buckling down and getting to my training. Racing season starts soon!! April 14th is my first 5K of the year. I am going to run it hard (!!) but know that a 5K PR is unlikely. Then I run my first 10K on April 28th!! Anyways, 2 miles in 19:38 is pretty good for this girl! The weather was also beautiful this weekend!


Some personal pizza’s were also had this weekend!! They were quite yummy actually!!


I tried to do as much foam rolling and icing as possible – but I know I could have done a bit more. Do what you can, when you can. The Easter bunny actually didn’t come on Sunday morning for me. I was a pretty sad girl, I guess that’s what you get when you have been bad!


But then yesterday morning my brother and I awoke to treats around the house!!


Sweedish Bunnies and Sour Patch Bunnies! So cute, and my favourite Reese Egg, and Oh Henry Egg. Love me some treats. Yesterday I ate lots of chocolates, but I let myself. It was Easter, which only comes one day a year, and so I enjoyed it. Easter is now over, so eating Easter treats is now over. End of story. No guilt – just lots of sweat at the gym 😉

This weekend we also got a guest, we are dog sitting for the next few weeks! Now I will have a little bit more motivation to go for a walk, and a little companion to come with me. We could both afford to lose a few lbs so walking we will do!


For Easter dinner dessert, which we enjoyed last night I made a cake and cupcakes for my family to enjoy. I’m not a baker, or a chef. I need lessons. But it turned out ok.









And with that, I am ready to get back into normal eats. I was doing pretty good last week – its the little things! Less process sugar, more veggies, favourite treats in moderation.

Here is to a short, but successful week!!